I knew it’s been a while I didn’t update my blog…i just dont know what else to share with u guys out there…but this time I’m going to post something unusual that I felt lately…. I just couldn’t understand why I felt there’s a lie and betrayal going on…my instincts said so…I tried so hard to erase it but my heart denies it…can it be true? Can I rely on my instincts saying that someone had hurt me and lie to me without my knowledge
Let me blab about what I feel right now…well, I have just listened few nights ago with mommy…sort of a religious motivation talk and penceramah atu highlight kisah nabi which I find it interesting…kisah nabi berjumpa dgn this very social man…kaki judi, kaki perempuan and kaki minum…. I don’t wan to waste time writing whatever happens but yg pentingnya, si lelaki atu insaf dgn sebuah permintaan nabi…. permintaan nabi cuma satu, yes satu…. “jangan berbohong..” and the man agreed…. terjadinya satu contract yg dinamakan JANJI 
Well the moral of the story is, make sure u can fulfill your promise to the promise… cos once he/she finds out you go against the promise, then you will never find peacefulness in urn lives, no trust from that person and yet will be label as a traitor…therefore I wish to those lie and betray me out there with all the happiness in their lives… mudahan kamu semua berbahagia dgn pengkhianatan dan bersedialah menerima pangkat baru dalam kehidupan iaitu sebagai seorang MUNAFIK
Promise- tell me what you meant by that? It’s just a word which had seven letters with different values, maybe worth a little or more which depends on a case to case basis
Why must there be a promise made? Why make promises if u can’t grant it? Why betray ones feeling in directly? Is it because lies are needed to cover some guilt? What’s the purpose of lies if it eventually hurts in the end? Promises are needed to compromise two or more different parties for a better solution, to know the boundaries and to take note on their rights in the right way…. Not the reverse way but to respect in what way they are required to fulfill in….
Sometimes I do wonder myself, is there anyone in my life who can be 100% honest with me? Someone who could be truthful although it may hurt us sometimes? But what good is a lie anyway if in the end u gets caught? My heart alerts me with something but I just don’t understand who and why….. I just don’t knew why am I sensing this lie and betrayal thing so I guess the best way to do is to PRAY TO ALLAH so that He can give me some clues on my mist. I’ve been trying to be honest with everyone I know but it’s sad to know that there’s lies between truth…. don’t you feel the guilt of such a small lie (maybe big) that u did?
If my intention is wrong, punish me dear Allah…. but if I’m on the right path, please guide me and please give mercy to that person…. I am sure there are reasons behind everything that happens…i know…
What goes around comes around…. One fine day I know Allah will show me the truth… I don’t want to mention names or accuse whoever but yeah, if you think it’s you, please confront me and tell me why? Am I such a bad person in your eyes? If you have the intention of committing a sin towards me, why must u do so? If I let u make a promise and u can’t fulfill it, why can’t u just be honest? Is there anyone who is not satisfied with me? Can’t anyone just be honest to me right now? If you’re afraid I might get hurt, what about God up there watching u? I know what I’m writing is just based on my instincts, but I’m sure u knows what my point is right? How can you seek forgiveness from him if you do wrong towards me… Remember what Allah said… “I will forgive your sins towards me if you really repent, but I shall not interfere if you did wrongs among yourselves” so think about it
I am pretty much aware that I am writing based on instincts without proper prove, yes that’s true….I haven’t got any prove yet as proves can be deleted like deleting files in your PC… but don’t forget the prove and witness that God sees up there… I don’t know the intention of that person since I don’t know who…. I just hope that whatever that person’s intention is, stop it… before it’s too late…
I will continue soon as I’m so damn sleepy….. I’ll just leave these nice quotes for you readers to understand deeply how I feel right now and as a reminder to those who feels o having a bad intention….
“Empat perkara sesiapa yang memilikinya adalah dia munafik yang nyata dan sesiapa yang memiliki satu daripadanya dia memiliki satu sifat munafik,
Apabila bercakap dia berbohong,
Apabila diamanahkan dia khianat.
Apabila berjanji dia mungkiri,
Apabila bergaduh dia melampau“.
Good night everyone
